It has been a long, long silence – far longer than intended. This time I will blame WordPress because the changes they seem to have made to their system have overwhelmed the Liberian internet service provider! I have been unable to log into my account and unable to access my dashboard. It maybe that the changes are good for the world of fast ISPs but it is not wise to assume that everyone enjoys such luxury!
During this dark period of silence, I have in fact been very busy! Work was more interesting and varied – I like that! Then I had a 3 night visit to Buchanan which also varied the pace a little. Now I am about to head off on a well-earned holiday – to Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, for the first time. That will make my 14th country on the African continent which is not bad for my time here, especially when you consider that I’ve been to many places more than once.
Hmmm, I am not able to attach a photo due to the ISP incapacity. Sorry! But at least these few words let you know I’m still alive. One can hope that the ISPs will be faster in East Africa! Love & laughter!
I’m back in Monrovia. Back in the green and brown land. Back to slow and frustrating internet service. Back to food that always disappoints. Back to distrust and having to stay on constant alert. Back to tedious superficial work. Sigh. I want to be positive, but its difficult to move beyond a sort of relative positivism derived from knowing that “there are worse places to be”. That always sustained me through difficult times in Albania “well you could be back in the classroom facing 35 rampant 13 year olds…hmmm…better to be here afterall!” Now that thoughtline is replaced with “well you could be in Afghanistan, or Dafur, or Iraq…hmmm….better to be here afterall.” But it does kind of wear thin. Mainly because my subconscious is also starting to raise a counter argument to that…”well you could also be in Australia, or Croatia, Cambodia or Uganda…hmm…so you don’t actually have to stay here!” Aahhh the human mind is pretty amazing and tricky in how it reveals what’s really going on as a sort of sudden surprising revelation. I’m not about to make any changes, and I plan to stay in Liberia for as long as it makes sense to, but that’s not to say that there are some days when its nice to dream of escape and a more enjoyable and constructive way to pass my time.
These negative thoughts are somehow indicative that I had a fine holiday these last 5 weeks…great holiday equals difficult re-entry! The long flight back gave me time to think through the type of life I want here. As I can’t do much to change the work scenario, I need to sort out a few things related to my living situation – deal with the house-cleaner who is cheating me, find a new fitness routine to replace taekwondo, resign from all responsibilities outside of work, and expand my social network. All the usual things that we typically think through at the start of a new year hey…but good things that will help me to be happier for as long as I’m in Monrovia. I spent a few evenings sitting by the beach with an evening drink. The sunset by the beach is the best time of the day in Monrovia!
Even with the weeks of silence on the blog, there has been a steady stream of readers – noice! I need to find the time to post more and snazzy things up a little…if only the internet was a tad faster!!!
Here’s a photo to capture the mood of this post…sunset at the beach taken New Year 2012. Til next time, let’s keep smiling 🙂
Okay, I must make an effort here and post some words. It has been silent here on the blog for 2 weeks and my only excuse is that life has been fast and the internet has been slow! I’ve got too many important things to do but I don’t seem to be very successful at accomplishing them. Like last Sunday, I had the day to chill, edit photos, and post a piece on the blog. Did I achieve any of that? I did edit some photos, but I certainly didn’t chill and the post got messed up too. Its frustrating because I can’t exactly define where the time went and why things didn’t get done.
On reflection, its been a theme for 2011, as there are several important things that I have not done – and I don’t know why they didn’t get done. The slow internet service is a good excuse, but it is more than that. Something in my motivation to do the hard stuff is missing. Or maybe I’m too tired from just doing the essential work tasks that t the essential non-work tasks don’t get addressed. Hmmm, it will have to be faced soon enough I guess, because I’ve got 2 essential non-work tasks looming and I need to buy those plane tickets! Actually maybe that is the missing ingredient – an urgent deadline. The plane tickets will be purchased because holidays have a deadline. But other things that I want and plan to do, like writing here, don’t have fixed deadlines. It seems that tasks without a credible, unbreakable deadline, simply don’t get done! Well, there’s a useful revelation that has come of this rambling.
Except of course, that’s probably too simplistic! There are many reasons why some tasks get done and others don’t, and while having a deadline might be a strong motivator, its not the only one. There is also the motivation of feeling good, satisfied with an accomplishment. There’s also motivation that comes from ticking off an item from the ‘to do list’. I’m not sure that there are (m)any other motivators for me.
So, at least I wrote some words. Another post has been submitted. I am satisfied 🙂 and my ‘to do list’ is one item shorter 🙂
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